It has been a year. It has certainly been a year.
It’s been a year since I heard you voice. It’s been a year since I saw your face. It’s been a year since I hugged you, and laughed with you, and got to hold your hand.
It’s been a year filled with emotions … both happy and sad, angry and appreciative, joyful and sorrowful. I miss you. I miss you in ways I didn’t know I could miss someone. I miss you for reasons I can’t even put into words.
You were the best. Your love and your heart are what I miss most. Your smile and your voice are what I miss most. Your hugs and your wisdom are what I miss the most. Simply having you near me, and knowing you were near, is what I miss the most.
Our memories together are my greatest treasures. Thank you for creating them with me. Thank you for living a life that was full of amazing moments. Those moments are what I stir up in my mind and heart when I need you and want you back. Those special times that were just you and me, and us … those are the most beautiful things you left behind.
Your life is still making a difference. I want you to know that, even though you hopefully already know that. Your words and your wisdom are still here. Your love and your faith are still here … even though you are gone.
But here’s the thing … you are not really gone. You’ve just shifted. You’ve shifted into the most glorious existence … THE existence we will one day experience when we are reunited in Heaven. God has given us the greatest gift … His love, and life everlasting in His presence. There is nothing greater.
As I sit here and wish you were sitting right next to me, so I could rest my head on your shoulder, and tell you I love you, I know that deep down … really deep down … I want you to be exactly where you are. You are with our ever-loving Father.
For you, it’s been a year of worship and praise, dancing and singing, joy and complete peace. It has been a year of being completely healed and whole and set free. For you, it has been a year of experiencing God’s presence like we will never know here on Earth. Of that, I am a little envious. :)
So, on this one year anniversary of your entrance into Heaven, I want you to know that I still love you more than ever, miss you more than ever, and am so thankful I will see you again someday. We can worship together, and it will be magnificent.
Thank you for still being here with me, though. I feel your presence in so many wonderful ways. The butterflies and the birds, the sunsets and the seasons … they are all reminders of how blessed I am to be your daughter. I still hear your heartfelt words about love and life and faith, and for that I am grateful.
It has been a year … one of the toughest, but I thank God for healing my heart, day by day. It’s not an easy journey, and it is not a quick one, either. It’s a lifelong process of seeking Him … our Comforter.
So, Mom, know that I love you more than words can express, and I pray God allows us to have more beautiful moments together this year. You are so precious to me.
I’ll love you forever, like you for always,
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